Well here I am again, this time for good.
I currently do not see myself fitting in the current state SAPD's at, by all means. I questioned the methods, promotions and overall actions the so called 'HQ' actually did over the last months and I still don't know where that might possibly lead in the long run, most likely the total destruction of SAPD. I see no vision, no motivation and no willness for improvement in this place any longer, let alone activity. I understand Argonath's state has also been rather stale and that's what I kept saying to myself over the last months. "Oh SAPD's dead because Argo's dead", "Oh there's no active personnel", "Oh we also have a real life" are just phrases uttered by people that lack true knowledge as of what's going on. And yes, my activity has not been the best to even argue about what's right or wrong, but it's enough to realize that this place is definitely dead not due to activity issues, but motivation and leadership issues.
I know I make myself look as the typical whiner and bad girlboi that is here to cause shit. Afterall it's Argonath RPG, the questions we cannot answer or face with dignity are just made by whiners and bullshitters. I tend to do and think a little differently and that's why I consider this message as the greatest contribution this 'HQ' or High Command or whatever can ever have.. mainly because I ain't afraid I'm not gonna be promoted, or blacklisted, or they gonn' fire me by expressing my thoughts, I really don't care anymore.
To back myself up a little bit, yes, I've been rather inactive the last 2-3 months. Guess what.. this is my last year in college hopefully and I'm giving it my all. I'm not going to fall into details about my real life personal issues when it comes to economy (yes I live in Greece) but I will say this much: I cannot even afford a stable connection from the place I study, hence the inactivity. The thing is that I've been able to play pretty much every week tho, and all I saw was a dead server. I was given an assignment to handle but ended up nowhere near completing it due to not enough SAPD online. :lol:
My thoughts and beliefs are mentioned here (http://arpd.argonathrpg.com/forum/index.php?topic=1918.msg362693#new) so I'm not gonna start over again. I might aswell apologize to Bas for my brutal honesty and the only thing I can give actually give him is that he tried to talk it out with me in private.. well that's that. Most of the points I tried to make went unanswered still. Anyhow, this is not directed to Bas and I got nothing personal against both Bas and Doggi but I strongly believe that this two-man command is gonna end up with them being left alone in SAPD while quality personnel has left for another servers. For once, do not blame the server's state and look on every detail. I'm gonna share the discord conversation I had with Bas after the bullshitting that went on forums and this is how it ended up. Unasnwered.
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I mentioned in my temporary leaving post some points and that's an addition to it. In a strong part of these images I complain about why I and Jason were not granted rights to revive Detective division which still is a hell of a question to me. I don't wanna brag but when it comes to quality RPs, I and Whiteman along with other peeps caused the greatest noise over the last years when it comes to corrupt government, Inglewood Cripz, Long Beach Mob etc. And yes, the point is that we could've made DD a complete place for each and every officer to look up to. And guess what.. what is the point of not actually reviving it at this very moment? It's already dead. Server's dead. I still don't get it. Use each and every weapon in your arsenal to make this place a bit worthwhile!!!
Most decisions if not all after Jake Parker's departure was partly wrong in my eyes. If somebody claims otherwise, he can simply ask himself why ARFD has been more active than SAPD the last month.
And that concludes my two cents, if this is taken personal I mean I couldn't care less. Let me tell you that whatever's left of SAPD pretty much agrees to the main point here, they are just afraid or given up or too inactive to express.
Peace.