Title: I Haven't Changed, But You Think I Did.

[Aryin James]

I belive matrixbob did not fire you for being be in gvardia, but for suspicous acts in SFPD.

Actually, I was fired for lack of interest.  There was no suspicious activity taking place.  So technically I was being fired for joining Gvardia.  There was no probable reason why I was actually fired, just the fact that I was being in a lack of my duties.  I was taking a break from being a cop all the time, thats practically all it was.

Goodbye Sarah, i'm sure everyone respects your choise
Stop disrespecting specfic criminal groups ; Gvardia.

Yet again, I am not leaving seeing as I've already been fired.  This was just an apology and explination of whats goin' on.  I am not leaving.

As long as you have enemies in the command staff you will not be able to do anything in SAPD, like it or not.
Gvardia is just having fun by doing shootouts. It's fun for both the Gvardia and the cops (at least from my experience).

Gvardia roleplays with themselves so no one has a right to call them pure DMers. When I was in Montana I was attacked by Gvardia all the time and I had fun escaping from a sultan full of mobsters in combat gear.

This topic just shows how biased cops are towards criminals.

I don't have any enemy in any place.  Not even in SAPD Command staff.  I may have made a few Non-Liked people at my time.  But I don't intend on getting enemies and stuff.  I just wanted to have more than one RP and nobody seemed to have trust.

[Wayne]

Actually, I was fired for lack of interest.  There was no suspicious activity taking place.  So technically I was being fired for joining Gvardia.  There was no probable reason why I was actually fired, just the fact that I was being in a lack of my duties.  I was taking a break from being a cop all the time, thats practically all it was.

No.
you got yourself fired, because you made resignation topic when suspended

[Aryin James]

No.
you got yourself fired, because you made resignation topic when suspended

Actually, no I didn't.  I was fired before I made the Good-bye topic.  Thank you for your attemptive correction though.  I know the order in which I did something.  I got Fired for Lack Of Interest- which wasnt the case.  I then made a good bye letter, which I was attempting to say good-bye and thanks for all the time I've had in SAPD.  Even though I don't want to leave it.  So i was fired BEFORE the topic that I made, the suspension turned INTO a termination due to the fact that I seemed NOT intersting but that was never the case....  Thanks for you attempt though, Wayne.

[Wayne]

????????
now im confused
i'll try contact matrixbob

[[SD]Douglas_Harrison]

I prefer stay in silence than say something now.

Forget that. Why apologize? I dont care if you apologize because you flip back and forth between things. Stick to one thing and keep it that way. Now I prefer to say in silence but I will say something later.

[Wayne]

Forget that. Why apologize? I dont care if you apologize because you flip back and forth between things. Stick to one thing and keep it that way. Now I prefer to say in silence but I will say something later.

You're not my dad to interfeer in my choices, excuse me?

I came in decision to say something, i find it better, you want me shut up and let things go? ofc not, i'm trying to do whatever i can.

[jemerson]

Although I am not a big fan of you in general, I do believe the reason you were fired was a bullshit excuse to get rid of you. Anyway, I wish you the best of luck in your future endeavors!

[Boozman]

Although I am not a big fan of you in general, I do believe the reason you were fired was a bullshit excuse to get rid of you. Anyway, I wish you the best of luck in your future endeavors!

Too right, Gotta admit the truth.

[Leroy Hudson]

Sarah you went inactive without being on duty for even 10mins for quite some time, then the suspicious stuff on SFPD, Thats what had you fired..

[jemerson]

Sarah you went inactive without being on duty for even 10mins for quite some time, then the suspicious stuff on SFPD, Thats what had you fired..

It was like literally less then a week. Stop playing into it to impress command staff to get a promotion. Those games don't work with me. People on this game go through phases. Look at your Captain for example, he joined the FBI for a week then came back.

With great power, comes great responsibility.

By the way, you are not spider man, don't kid yourself sir.

[Boozman]

Sarah you went inactive without being on duty for even 10mins for quite some time, then the suspicious stuff on SFPD, Thats what had you fired..

It was like literally less then a week. Stop playing into it to impress command staff to get a promotion. Those games don't work with me. People on this game go through phases. Look at your Captain for example, he joined the FBI for a week then came back.

Hate to say it, but your right :x

With great power, comes great responsibility.

By the way, you are not spider man, don't kid yourself sir.

lawl

[RoryAnstruther]

Code Gvardia's.

My joke!! How dare you!!

[Aryin James]

Sarah you went inactive without being on duty for even 10mins for quite some time, then the suspicious stuff on SFPD, Thats what had you fired..

Wow, really?  I went inactive....No, sir, I took a break.  Are people not entitled to taking a break from being a cop 24/7 and just having some fun?  Apparently not, but I'm goin' to need you to look at yourself when you go into the PD Locker room, headed home for the evening, and you tell me, that you're not off duty for more than 10 minutes.  You may still be a cop at heart, but when you're off duty, you're off duty.  People are entitled for vacations, if I'm not than thats a f**ked up world people live in.  I'm sorry but I am not going to sit in a police uniform, cop car and all this, 24 hours out of 7 god damn days.  I am a human being and I can flex my mind as to what I want to do and what I do not want to do.

After being apart of the SAPD for 6 months straight, and serving this community for 6 months straight, as an almost 24/7 cop -only logging off- Don't you think its time I was allowed to step off duty for more than a week to take a well deserved break?  Cause I sure as hell do believe that a break on my part was needed.

This week I've been thrown at with more shit in this game, than I have in real life, and thats pretty shitty to say seeing as two uncles of mine have passed away in a weeks time span AND my dog died.  So, if you want to shit around and say I went off duty to have a break, well piss on you and think twice.  Because I deserved the break I took with all the shit I've been put through.

I have put my life at risk, as a RL person, due to my stress level being higher than a normal humans stress level, because of this god damned game, and my RL situations that are occuring.  And my exhaustion level, is no longer an exsistence due to the fact that I have been running on pure tiredness for the most part of these few weeks.  So, excuse the hell out of me for wanted to be a different person every now and again.

Get your head out your ass, read the damn topic, and LEARN that I am not here to say SORRY THAT I WENT OFF DUTY, but that I am SORRY THAT I HAVE SUPPOSEDLY DISHONORED MY NAME, when all in all, a rank in a game does not matter to the real world.  So what if you can shoot an animated MP5 at a persons face and blow them away?  So the f**k what if you can snipe someone from twenty miles away, kill them and get away with it?  You know what, I don't play this game for a rank in the system; I play this game to have damn fun.

If I were to know, that people would shit on me for having more than one roleplayed character, I would have never joined the ARPD in the first f**king place.  Seeing as I can't even leave police work for more than 10 minutes of my IG Characters life.  Its pathetic how some of you peoples heads are so stuck in this game that you don't even realize the Real world from the Fake world, being this game.

I may play this damn game for more than 2 hours a day or something, but at least I know that when I log off, I have a family I can talk to, and friends I can hang out with, where I can escape from the pressures a DAMN GAME GIVES ME!  I may be very harsh with this little part here, but I could give TWO f**ks less if I were fired the day I was put into the ARPD.  Simply because, its a game.  This game is NOT going to produce my future career.  This game, is not going to tell me where I am going to go in the next life.  This game, is NOT WHAT I LIVE FOR!  I may have a slight addiction to what I call a fun game, but once you put in place that your RANK in a game is more important than having FUN in a game, there begins the problems.  I've been playing GTA:SA since it was first released, and I've had more fun playing the Single Player than I have playing here, because here its all about whose the better of the people.  Here its about Money, Rank, and what you own.

I have 66k to my name, yes I own a Stretch, and two elegys, but I don't own a house, I rent a hotel at Vank Hoff in Queens, San Fierro.  And I enjoy being off duty now, because I'm not burdened with the simplest of things as "You're in trouble if you don't come here" and "You're fired if you don't back me up."  You know what, I've had more fun taking pictures of buildings, driving around in my car, and just being a normal CIVILIAN, than being a cop where I was limited to space.

I know, I said I wanted to come back, but the more I realize that the SAPD has more restricitions than the normal police departments IRL have, I come to find out I don't even wanna be here, in this PD anymore.  There are more things I can't do as a Officer of the ARPD, than I can do as a Officer of a RL PD.  at least with the RL world I can go off duty, do whatever the f**k I want thats within a legal limitation- go to work the next day and be perfectly fine with the things I did the night before.

With this, I can't even be 10-7 and drive around in my own car still being on duty.  And that is complete and utter bullshit, seeing as I got yelled at by someone who was driving in an UNMARKED POLICE CRUSIER, themselves.  So think twice before you attempt to step out of the line, because I may be a female, but I am a female with a steel heart and I don't take no shit from nobody.  I am tired of hearing "Oh well her tag is _Gvardia, she's a DMing SOB and she'll attack at sight, make sure you watch her every move" or something to that nature.  I am tired of seeing 2 and 3 cops FOLLOW me around at every turn I take and every move I make.  Like I have my own box but the damn door is broken and people just walk in without even attempting to knock.  Ya'know?  I am tired of being treated like a piece of dirt when all I ever done was HELP out and provide the needed things that people in the community wanted.

And another thing to top all this bullshit off, that everybody neglected to see and use...They neglected the fact that I could have been an UC the whole entire time, to provide them with the information they needed to put an end to a criminal group that is growing 2x the size of the city of San Fierro itself.  And when you neglect something so prudently out there at hands reach, how DARE YOU say that I am not trustworthy of being apart of something I've been apart of since October of 2009.  I have shown nothing but gratefulness towards this police department, and I get thrown with bullshit stuff of, "I Don't listen," "I'm not trustworthy," well you know what, if I wasn't willing to listen, or I wasn't trusted, would I have even been accepted into the SAPD in the first damn place?  Nah, probably not.  But I was purely trusted by someone elses instinct of what I do as a police officer for the SAPD, and I was shit on by some other persons who barely seen me work at all.  Distinctly, I've worked even with the person who made the ultimate decision, and I've been friends with him all along, but words got into his brain and I was rejected by someone I thought I could honestly trust within my own heart.

So, the next time you decide to cross over into my situation again, don't think I won't bite back with the truthful meaning of what I have to say.  Thanks for your time.

[Alan Demarest]

You are taking this game and SAPD WAAAAAY to seriously.

You play to have fun, not do a job. There are people who enjoy playing/working as a cop. I dont think you're one of them. As you admit yourself it only brings stress and shit.

[Chief J. Schappell]

Sarah you went inactive without being on duty for even 10mins for quite some time, then the suspicious stuff on SFPD, Thats what had you fired..

Technically she was never fired. She was suspended pending an investigation, but later was "randomly" fired for no apparent reason under the claim that she had no more interest in SAPD. I don't know the exact situation behind her random firing, but from what she's told me, it wasn't a correct reason.

[jemerson]

Sarah you went inactive without being on duty for even 10mins for quite some time, then the suspicious stuff on SFPD, Thats what had you fired..

Technically she was never fired. She was suspended pending an investigation, but later was "randomly" fired for no apparent reason under the claim that she had no more interest in SAPD. I don't know the exact situation behind her random firing, but from what she's told me, it wasn't a correct reason.

Read what I said, its not.

[Chief J. Schappell]

Although I am not a big fan of you in general, I do believe the reason you were fired was a bullshit excuse to get rid of you. Anyway, I wish you the best of luck in your future endeavors!

I think one of us is missing something here lol. I'm agreeing with you Jake, aren't I?

[Matrixbob]

I belive matrixbob did not fire you for being be in gvardia, but for suspicous acts in SFPD.

INdeed you are correct mister wayne. However i have been looking into this ever since i did what i did. I did that for a reason to protect SFPD and SAPD. But as sarah stated she would not mix the two. I trust her there but as i stated its to make sure nothing got leaked out of SAPD.

[Sushi]

Sarah I know you've probably forgotten who I am but I'll state my opinion anyway. When you were in SACS you were a joy to play with - fantastic RPer and good friend. When you left SACS it didn't bother me as I knew you were still that same person. I don't know why but you joining Gvardia confused me. I know that the gangs/mafias/families RP with eachother but a lot of the time they refuse to RP with police groups and simply start big shootouts.

Just so you know I have nothing against you as I do not know the full story. Good luck with whatever you do.

Sushi

[Ben Hells]

Agreed good luck and well said Sushi... Also I would like to state: Our lives are not written, we take each step ourselves, We turn our own pages. By that I basically mean Do what you want within your life but do not regret anything you have or havn't done but be thankful for you own time on this amazing earth...

See ya around